#18. Apply for full time jobs

Along with my epiphany [that I shouldn't wait around while life passes me by] earlier in the month- brought on by a slight panic over turning 25- came the realization that before anything can get better, I have to take the risk of putting myself out there.

*aka*

If I wanted a better, full-time job in the field I am educated in, I would have to...

APPLY.

Ok, doesn't sound scary- and certainly not enough to draw out such a paralyzing fear, but to a slightly introverted book worm like me- it can take a whole morning to build up enough confidence just to drop off a resume.

After all, I may be stubborn- but I also get nervous in many social situations.

[what can I say? I'm an enigma.]

Trust me. Applying for jobs is a ★big deal★

So when a friend I have in the field let on to a possible opening at her center I pulled on my big-girl panties, painted my nails, printed out my resume and drove over to talk to the center's director.

Much less drama than I envisioned.

Maybe the key to getting through these stressful facts-of-life is less about preparation and more about just doing it.

Who knows?

Now it's a waiting game for my current job to come to an end and an interview can be set up for this new place (hopefully!).

Wish me luck!!

On a further note:

I am fully aware that placing all my hopes on one, single, job opportunity is ... not the brightest.

I am dropping off my resume at another center on Monday!

☆This number on my list is one that, though officially checked off- should never be thought 'done' & should be continually pursued until such time that my goal [a full time job] is achieved!☆

#4. Get a Tattoo

Whew. #4 on my 25 Things list... DONE!

Wow.
So there's me. <25> and I've realized that waiting around for life to start is the quickest way to watch life pass you by! It's one of the main reasons I started my 25 things list- to remind me to take an active part in this thing that is my life, because it is mine to live.

Getting a tattoo (#4 on my list!) is something I've been putting off for quite some time. I knew what I wanted, of course- a literary quote, but it just never seemed like the right time or I didn't have someone to go with.

THEN I wondered why the HECK was I waiting for SOMEONE ELSE to tell me when it was the "right time" to get a tattoo?
After all, it was going on *my* body.

So on the first day of my Birthday Month- I set out to get the tattoo I wanted.

It was exhilarating and strangely anti-climatic, my trip.
Yes, the entire time [up to the moment the needle touched my skin] I was wondering: am I really going to do this? 
But I wouldn't change a thing!

I had so much fun! The place I went to was so accommodating and nice! It was relaxed, comfortable, not crowded, and definitely not intimidating. (Though honestly, I'm not one easily intimidated. I think I mentioned somewhere I can be stubborn as hell? hmm... sounds about right...)

The tattoo. Hurt. Like. Hell.

But SO worth it!!

I LOVE it! ❤

This experience gave me a much-needed jolt to the fact that I'm much more capable then some give me credit for.

So now it's a waiting game- for warmer weather to come so I can show it off!!
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Can you tell who the quote is by???
<Hint: it's by one of my favorite authors>
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It says:

They

who Dream

by Day are

Cognizant

of many things

which escape those

who Dream only

by Night

Happy [25th] Birthday!

It's APRIL & I turn 25 this month.

<I'm still keeping the exact date a secret ;-) >

Quarter of a century.
Mid-twenties.
An adult.
Yes- to all of the above.

This past year has been crazy & unfortunately, my idea to ✎write a blog has fallen by the wayside in place of more pressing issues (like working so I can pay those pesky student loans...apparently I'm and "adult" now and that's something adults "do") $$$

Anyway.

Like any self respecting book-obsessed, story-loving, get-lost-in-another-world reader, there are moments where I seem to suffer from an almost crippling case of social awkwardness that would send even the most charismatic stranger grappling for words. I blame it on years of not being able to read social cues. <Thank you ADD>

Seriously. I don't care how good your people skills are, I will find a way to misunderstand & sit there with a blank look on my face wondering why the heck I'm not at home reading a good book and instead trying to rack my brain for a half-decent way to communicate with you.   -_-

That being said- it explains why this past year I've read over one hundred books (112 to be exact, thank you Goodreads) instead of going out and facing the world.

Don't get me wrong, I enjoy going out like any normal 25 year old. It's just that after a night of pounding music, flirty smiles, and free drinks I feel satisfied that I have met that imaginary 'time quota' for acceptable social behavior and interaction for my age.
I find myself thinking "That was great. I think I'm good for a couple months."
Anything extra & it starts to become an effort to smile, I wonder why in the HECK I ever liked going out in the first place...

So I'm faced with a dilemma. At 25 I find myself struggling to forge a path through this messed up, complicated, phase of life called the "recently graduated" and even though I'd love to just sit and read- I'm still subject to the can't-wait-for-my-real-life-to-begin frustration that drives most college graduates bonkers! Like an itch you can't scratch, sometimes I feel like I should being doing something MORE.

☆☆THE PLAN☆☆

The plan is simple.
25 things to do while I'm 25.

I'm determined to make the most of this year, so I've made a list of 25 things I want to do.
I plan on pushing my comfort zone in an attempt to fulfill that anxious need that drives me crazy thinking about things I could be doing.
This includes doing things I need to do in my next step in becoming an "adult".
Things I've wanted to do but felt I couldn't. Or shouldn't.
Things that I will look back on & think "I'm so glad I did that" even if it's just once.

25 Things To Do While I'm 25

1. (Re)Start blog! yay!


2. Visit my Bestie <Red> in Omaha
     [-also- get out of the State]


3. Take the Praxis II


4. Get a tattoo

5. Enroll in my certification class

6. Write a short story

7. Get involved in a club or activity

8. Paint my room

9. Kiss a guy <3


10. Go to a dance club


11. Take scuba lessons

12. Get a piercing

13. Find a reason & wear my corset

14. Go the the gym

15. Get my own car insurance

16. Go to AC & gamble

17. Get my certification!

18. Apply for full-time jobs



19. Read a classic book



20. Go on a blind date



21. Go to a music event [i.e. Concert!]


22. Go laser tagging

23. Go to a sports event

24. Contact an old friend

25. Take a self-defense class